Blogging to clear my noggin

hey peeps!..

recently the struggle for frens has come n gone but in e end after the storms only the true people who stay are worth n deem fit to b called your frens.

this morning, met up w some of my church frens including my best bud ambrose for sashimi buffet.. at miramar hotel.. at SGD$35/- per pop..

luv it man!.. scroll below to c the serving size. but in total we chalked up 8-9+ plates of sashimi.. mainly eaten by darryl, ambrose n me.. n some by jac..

frenzy and of cos meeting up w old frens all i know for min 5-17+ yrs

lugged along all my transcripts and paperwork to submit to my sch of choice for my degree prep but alas, the coordinator is around.. o well.. monday then.. not tt i got a choice.. lol..

hung ard w my good frens, jac n darryl for some kopi and met up w am later for a movie..

not too bad a day, discussed issues at great length.. in e end i realised i dun nid loads of frens ard me but juz the ppl whom tried, tested and proven.. who will stick in good n bad..

disappointed recently by the chain of events.. how misunderstood i can b n badly perceived i am by others when my intent is not bad at all.. in e end i dun wish to think anymore.. coz i haf nothing to hide about.. and tt i can look up n thank the person guiding me to discern and learn from the mistakes and look to the future. studies more impt for now.. wadeva good tt comes along.. is juz a bonus.. =)

*jus clears distractions*

hey u guys.. recently im chasing my female frens away unwittingly.. wonder y or wad is going on.. in a flash of an eye, suddenly two good female frens i know is not on v good terms w me.. sighh..

i wuz juz complaining last post abt a fren of mine. but now, another close fren drifts further away.. now i really wonder what is going on.. did i do anything wrong? all i recall i kept my word n did not say anything except the mutual fren.. but it’s like being shell-shocked out of a sudden.. in hokkien.. die also dunno how u die.. darn.. some1 pls shed some light into this pls? i really hate losing frens but it comes n i dun even know wad i did wrong.. sighh..

aniwae, i’ve finally got down to doing it.. my part time study.. surpisingly not in SIM but most prob in SMa.. which stands for sch of management.. in a double major for management n marketing from uni of Murdoch. n it is starting faster than expected.. the bridging modules start like in 3 weeks time.. n as i struggle to cough the cash out n do the admin work.. degree starts in may though.. but gotta grit my teeth n do it coz i dun wanna b a fence sitter anymore. 18mths of accelerated study.. prob will keep myself bz for a while and shut out unwanted stray thoughts. sunday’s prob will b burnt for 2 mths flat for my modules n 500 per module.. owww..

wish me luck peeps in wadeva tt comes.. my frens.. i dun mean any harm but y am i always misunderstood?

"our father in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven…"

how true it is in this case, may ya guide it in the way u will it to b..

*jus strives*

it’s sometime since i’ve posted. and yeaps.. been pretty bz doing work n stuff. kinda bad though, juz working and eating gd food w some of my frens and working again. as my gd fren jac wuz say.. vegetating.. and NoooOoo.. i dun wanna vegetate.. put on some weight but less humour i guess..

hanging out w my best bud ambrose whom also is too neroutic for comfort sometimes.. he is definately in worse shape than i am. sighh.. sry abt tt man bro tt i cant do anything abt it. thinking in short paragraphs n phrases.. juz nid a lucky break somewhere out of the monotony. nid to make something happen. something to kick me out of the straight line, the cold office.. literally freezing at work. gawd, n i cant find any jacket at home to use.. tt i can afford to leave at work.. arghh..

recently blew out at one of my good ger frens. dunno wad happened or how it happened but i saw it 1 way, she saw it another. too close for comfort i presume. lack of tact on my part but yeap. im alwayss chasing my frens away. weird is’nt? maybe for the better also. she will still b one of my close frens to me but yeap juz not in the way it is currently. something muz b done to shift the balance..

so yeap.. some1 juz stop the time and allow the peace n tranquility to set in to soothe the mind coz it’s nv enough! sleep is nv enough for me.. n my boss is complaining im so lethargic.. some 1 juz kill my boss n my ceo for me pls.. all the nonsense rules and tight curfews.. all the regimental and red tape.. if i wanted a life like tt i would haf signed on.. sighh..y am i raving now when im not doing anything abt it? i also wonder.. well..

last but not least, those who cant stand me raving.. yeap.. my sincere apologies.. some ppl ask me for advice and sometimes i feel i dish them out ok. but yep.. i cant help ppl if i cant help myself cant i?.. yeap.. so allow me this post of ranting n raving n i’d get over it juz fine soon..

*jus saddened*

hey u peeps.

today was the election day for my church organisation where i finally stepped down after 3-4 years of committee handling. still going back to the place i used to know and still know i guess. juz on a different level only which is good. 15 yrs in it and prob wondering how much longer will i go. hmmm..

looks like the year started off with a big move on as my whole dept switched floors from the 2nd to the 3rd floor. one floor higher away from the danger zone which is the CEO office on 2nd floor but not any better for me as my boss is directly behind me. which also means he can see wad im doing behind the com. -___- ”’ great..

started on a slightly bad note also as the CEO seems to b targeting me. i mean in which company the CEO so wu eng to go ard and try to catch ppl.. geez. prob im juz unfortunate or maybe juz plain sway he always seems to catch me at the wrong time doing the wrong things which makes me seem like a constant trouble-maker. but den again the environment where i am now is so taunt and uncomfortable tt i feel like im in a prison with no walls. no freedom to do anything but the work in front of me.

gotta get a move on.. this year better not b like the last. i would like to look back on the year and proclaim i made a difference for myself this year. be it work or rship or juz progression..

less negativity and more move on i guess.. ganbatte to wadeva happens.. SIM n driving n less procastinating.

*jus moves on*

happy 2007 to everyone and wishing everyone the best of luck for the upcoming year. my christmas celebrations wuz alright and the week after tt wuz not so fab at work as mentioned in my previous post.

however, the end of the year 2006 ended on a sad note as one of my resident priest in my church passed away on the 29th of dec. noticeably one of the longest staying parish priest forr 33 yrs and resident priest for 37 yrs. may the good lord take fr carlo ly to a place where suffering and pain does not exist.

always the patient and quiet one who singlehandly made the parish of queen of peace to what it is now, fr carlo seldom pushes ppl and yet able to get his way across with so much reverence from the rest of the community.

spent most of the holidays in church in overnight vigil on the 30th dec and 1st of jan. however took a short reprieve away from the reflection in church to go out to east coast for the new year eve countdown. so crowded all over singapore but had a smashing time chilling out which ended at me at my fren’s place to play console game.. (nintendo wii).. lol..

as the usual work routine begins tml, who knows what tml brings? how would the year treat me? hopefully unlike the past year which i felt wuz not a good year for me, sincerely hoping more pleasant changes and more productive inputs for the year ahead.

*jus exhausted*