Blogging to clear my noggin

hi u all.. the weekend is pretty much dry.. but managed to settle it up w a close fren of mine. guess things are back to normal.. i hope.. lol.. aniwae..it’s been pretty bz weekend catching up w my cousin’s and prep work for my church organisation’s annual retreat.

but still the week nv fails to surpise me.. juz today the chinaman from hell starts his nonsense again by emailing the whole world tt i got unfinished work to settle w him (reports on part errors) which made my boss into a huge woo haa tt i muz submit a report to prevent error in the production.. by like thurs.. juz great.. now how do i ensure the production tt human error does not happen?.. like no way in hell if we are all humans.. automate the whole process or prob juz sack me la ok.. wtf lor.. expecting the impossible. improvement to the quality are nv observed. but 1 error report and they make so much noise. -___-”’ the mgt in my coy really sux.

to even deny ppl of their bonus and promotion chances if they dun go for annual convention and dinner and dance.. sounds more like a threat to me.. a place where the CEO paces the floor waiting to catch ppl for doing things they not supposed to do.. going mad in here.. muz b a jap mnc..

when will the grumbler stop complaining and b content w his lot? i really wonder.. although my week is not a total bummer!.. sitex 2006 on thurs where i intend to get a new digicam.. yeahhh.. hopefully the bonus at e end of the yr is able to cover for tt.. wahahaha… looking fwd to meet my poly frens in e week and chill out in the weekend. sighh.. rest.. something i really so nid and juz to enjoy the company of frens.

*jus tired*

hey u all.. this week has been a peaceful one.. recently bz with work after the fiasco tt happened w my net usage.. since 2 mths ago, been involved w 2 QCC circles.. of which i did 2 presentations in the semi’s of my inter-coy competition.. n now preparing the 2 presentations for the finals.. it’s pretty amazing how much work goes into 10 mites of presentation.. for 2 circles some more.. tired out.. my boss prob knows i’m too free at work.. lol.. so prob he is pilling shit on me.. so i cant play too much during work.. darn!

yeap.. so tt kinda sums up my week.. been meeting w all the frens tt kept me alive from when i wuz a kid till now.. all my church khaki’s.. my brothers.. n my best bud’s.. coz all may fail but i know i got a good lot of ppl whom i know dun put u down or shut u away..

with tt.. i bid u all gdnite.. =)

*jus @ peace*

today im demoralised. work’s been so so nowadays and there is a certain line i tread on gingerly and lightly on. aniwae.. had a bad disappointment when some abrupt plan made my fri v much despressing. it’s so obvious tt ppl are avoiding you.. it’s makes u seem like the plague tt is infecting the core of themselves and all u wanted to do iz enjoy their company. too long in the web of lies and deceit im in.. honesty i give out n so much i want it dished back.. but aniwae.. kudos to my air force fren i happen to meet up today so last min which made my lonely fri a less lonely 1.. lol.. n a good 1 at tt..

n we went to vivo city for some dinner and a movie.. the bond show which every1 been saying tt the new bond look like an old geezer.. which is so true. but do not let the old geezer fool u!!.. so far this is one of the more interesting bond shows i’ve watched in a long time.. and it is good. casino royale.. dun miss it manzz guys.. good rating from me at least.. n yes.. there are no trailers after the show. so dun bother staying for it.. though the end song is not bad.. daniel craig.. wow..

life without meaning is really meaningless.. life goes on like so n i really wonder wad im doing nowadays.. sighh.. iz it so difficult to achieve and try a simple quest? i really wonder..

my weekend looks pretty empty this week.. prob will try to fill it up myself and find something to do.. but while tt is going on, i juz stop n think n ponder wat goes wrong, why it happens and how it can make me a better person.. =)

*jus lost*

yes i began the week on a bad start. my boss called me in n told me i’m the top user in net usage.. aka.. net abuser.. so it’s a criminal offence to use msn during work.. sighh.. morph to puppy dog look and apologised.. yada yada..

yeap so my hectic week in work continues with even less distractions since its criminal to use msn during work. sighh.. some how the load seems heavier n there is no room to rest..

met up w jerry on monday.. updated him about our latest happenings in our lil church community. he is doing well himself. promoted and w some1 special. grats to u man brother..

nothing’s happening.. in this non-transistent part of my life.. as i want things to move but nothing is working.. *crud*

*jus sianz*

hey guys, sorrie for the emo outburst the last blog.. sighh after all the pent up feelings, it’s like a dike having too much water and it’s been burst open..

but den again, i really haf to thank for bunch of frens.. for making my weekend a fruitful one.

met up w jacqueline one of my close female frens for some dinner. yeap.. seems quite weird tt she is always there to hear my bad stuff.. but den again, it’s been ages since we met up and that wuz really good. other than meeting the rest last week. it’s quite uncanny.. maybe god knows im depressed and let me meet so many ppl to make me feel better.. supposed to meet ambrose to blade on sat which he did not meet.. in short he flew my kite… but i met up w miaoz.. my poly fren to blade in the early morning. her bf overseas and she had to blade.. im more of a last min resort? lol.. juz kidding.. aniwae it wuz lucky tt i did not meet am coz it rained real bad in the afternoon.. so, yea.. bladed in the morning to abt early afternoon.. and went back home to enjoy the cool weather and take a nap.

woke up to darryl calling me out to car show 2006. which wuz nt too bad.. lots of sights and sounds to distract the mind. i prob took more fotos of engine’s more than cars and girls.. yeap.. dinner wuz at new york new york @ the citylink mall. my food wuz good but scott’s grub sux. so dun order the spag w giant meatballs.. suck totally. but my spag mushroom w pork chop wuz good. yea..

ended the nite at father flanigan’s w some draft beer. the only draft i will actually enjoy taking. kilkenny’s.. really nice beer. aniwae, full and sleepy, toddles home..

tml’s main event probably will b the dinner for my mom’s bdae which is on the 13th nov. which also happen to coincides with a fren of mine.

yea.. happie weekend though had a sad week but hopefully things will lighten up. gotta gear up for a presentation on monday for work.. sighh.. o well..

*jus recovers*

hey u all.. juz posted like last 3-4 days ago.. yea yea.. sue me for spamming.

my knock on the head turned out to b a big bad bruise with no hope for recovery.

it’s v ironic, i’ve counselled my best bud abt his problem n yet i’m falling into the same death trap as him..

with all tt to say,  i felt a knock on my head and scolded.. but the fault is none other than mine. call me a hopeless romantic but due to my fantastical imagination, i let my heart rule my head too much. logic i did not use and threw rite out the window so.. sighh.. it’s been a while since i did’nt use my head and regretted the fact i did’nt so..

hahaha.. the fact is i’ve screwed up big time since day 1.. a walking misfit, a toddling calamity.. shld haf took more time, shld haf hold back when i shld.. too many should haf’s.. in e end, i do not deserve to counsel u my brother am.. coz i too haf erred unfortunately..

but still life still goes on, i cant stay emo forever, if i could turn back time, i’d bide my time.. if the future still holds for me someday, i’d learn from this mistake. did’nt know how much a pest i was till it struck me so hard..

a many big thanks to my frens.. the unholy trio since p1 we stood so, my close frens also.. even if things dun go the way it supposed, i’m glad it happened so i can learn more and grow.

my work too also crapped up.. the influx of orders and fouling up for accuracy is starting all over again.. my life has juz continued it’s downward spiral after the short fantasy break.. =)

*jus down*

hey u peeps.. this weekend is a revelation of surpises. well.. where shld we start.. ok.. thurs met up w my ccd ppl and has a blast.. me, darryl,diana, her bf ad and jac. well.. 1st thing 1st.. the turkish foos there really suck. n my frens look really… *ahem* different.. tt’s it jac! if u are reading this, ya coming blading w me really soon!!.. i insist..

fri prob wuz a nite of revelation for me. not much activities on tt day bah.. met up w ben and gs for some chinese makan at chinatown.. the grub at soup resturant really roxs man!.. simple fare but really good.. chicken, prawn tofu and the soup.. to top tt off had really nice desert at temple street further down. milk pudding, peanut paste and mango with pomelo and selasih.. really full but happie tummy today. but the revelation wuz the dialog w a shocker.. aniwae, i had a really long convo and it got pretty messy. seize the moment i guess.. and let the big guy up there do the rest. slept at 4.30am feeling troubled.

sat is concert day for me.. but 1st met up w my poly fren hanni for some burmese lunch. not too bad.. at a burmese temple in balestier.. happy bdae babe.. then after accompanying her n her fren to the sinseh, headed down for concert.. nothing really interestingg happening but rather the performance wuz not too bad for 2 pieces.. oregon and alvamar overture.

yea sun.. so now i did my usual thing, church and met w my ochibi.. aka my lil brother for some arcade playing.. n went off to meet ally for some dinner.. well totally bloated and had an interesting nite. thanks babe for the dinner recommendations.. more good food picking to come.. =)

kinda feeling bit helpless now tt i cant change the situation im in. but nevertheless in e end i leave it up to fate.i really want this to work out but knowing tt maybe the answer is not wad i want makes me v low. maybe juz let my actions do the talking and let the truth prove itself. im determined to make it work out if wad u are thinking abt though.. lol..

pray hard for me guys.. que sera sera.. wadeva will b will b..

*jus down*